trauma sideblog, yandere, bpd, depressed asf
everytime anything goes wrong i get the overwhelming urge to just end it all and i dont understand why
*gun to your head* what did you eat today
the only two types of yearning i experience are just like...wanting to cuddle and hold hands and be domestic and soft kisses :] and then like. feeling so deranged over a man that i need to rip him into shreds
i seriously can’t fucking live like this anymore, something needs to change
how the fuck do people live like this?? i seriously have a job i hate, bills to pay, extreme anxiety and suicidal thoughts constantly.. i just wish i could “live normally” it’s like i need a full time job but the part time one i have now is killing me slowly.. life fucking sucks.
exploding-stars asked:
just found your blog right now and damn… i can relate so hard. i‘m sorry that you’re going through hell… sending you so much love <3
aw thanks love, yea life is hard.. but i like this little place i’ve made on this blog :)
wow i forgot why i don’t like having bpd. i forgot how demonizing i must be because of my diagnosis. i forgot that getting help is not enough because i will always be flawed due to having bpd. i forgot my bpd made me an instant red flag. i forgot having bpd = “automatic toxicity”
when someone asks if your bpd is biological or trauma induced but you got the best of both worlds :,)
i gotta kill myself this year i have to i have to i have to i have to i have to i have to
tell me in detail how much you need me, go in detail with those compliments i promise you, i’ll never leave you
