nightmare in disguise

i’m so tired of people saying “you can only go so far down until you climb back up :)”

i’m telling you, my entire life has been a downhill,, i just don’t believe you anymore.. every time i think it can’t get worse it does

actually bpd bpd problems bpd vent actually borderline actually mentally ill bpd fp bpd bpd shitposting bpd favorite person bpd mood im tired of neurotypicals telling me shitty things to make me feel better.. i don’t need you to give me a pep talk i need support i need understanding.. i need someone to tell me maybe life is sucky and it’s okay cuz both of our lives can suck together not some shitty fairytale shit

why do i always end up alone no matter what

actually bpd bpd problems bpd bpd vent actually mentally ill actually borderline bpd fp bpd mood bpd shitposting bpd favorite person i’m gonna fucking off myself i stg i can’t live like this i cant do this

sadflesh

life is so boring when someone isn’t beating you until you’re almost dead

i’ve fallen for you.

so hard.

i’ve hit the ground. gone right through it. never in my life have i felt this. nothing like this. i’ve felt shame and cowardice, weakness and strength. i’ve known terror and indifference. self-hate and general disgust. i’ve seen things that can’t be unseen.

and yet i’ve known nothing like this terrible, horrible, paralyzing feeling of being unloved by you. desperate and out of control, every day i feel sick, empty and somehow aching. love is a heartless bastard.

actually bpd bpd problems bpd bpd vent actually mentally ill actually borderline bpd fp bpd mood bpd shitposting bpd favorite person fp tag borderline favorite person favorite person just fucking love me pls i’m begging beloved.txt

i’m so sick and tired of change, why can’t everything just stay the same forever.. why did you have to take away my safe space :((

actually bpd bpd problems bpd vent actually borderline actually mentally ill bpd fp bpd bpd shitposting bpd favorite person bpd mood i don’t know if i’m autistic or not but change scares the ever living shit out of me and it takes me 15 thousand years to adjust undiagnosed autism? i just simply cannot handle change in any capacity and it shows so much whatever the fuck this is i don’t like it

i’m not a real person i am just made up of abandonment issues and identity issues and mommy issues and daddy issues and attachment issues and anger issues

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nothingbutloveforyou

want someone to order takeout and have game nights with

bunnieborderline

dumbsuicidalteen

one thing about me is i am not doing so well

bpdcrybaby213

Sometimes the depression gets so bad I can't force myself to do anything. Sometimes the self hate is so much that I just don't care what happens to me. I don't have my risperidone and I already feel myself worsening more than usual. And I'm sensitive to everything more than I normally am. Trying anything to feel better like binge eating apple cinnamon Cheerios because it's easy to just continuously pour cereal and milk into a bowl a few times. Dishes are piled up, I haven't been showering or taking care of myself at all. I just lay around and watch Netflix or sleep. Sometimes I don't even feel anything. I just know I'm a failure and a disappointment and a burden. I don't want to leave my apartment. I wish I could just isolate. I wish I could disappear.

nightmare in disguise

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