trauma sideblog, yandere, bpd, depressed asf
Someone: does something without me that they said they were gonna do with me
Me: Fuck you, I don’t wanna see you ever again you don’t even deserve me! Cunt, bitch, motherfucker how dare you! You’re so fucking rude for no fucking reason you stupid fucking-
Also me: I’m sorry I’m such an awful person, of course you don’t like my company and just try to spare my feelings, I’m so sorry I’m a fucking wreck and you deserve better-
i think the worst part about having bpd is being reliant on another person for your happiness. it’s not their job or responsibility and it’s not fair to put it on them, but it’s like every time they don’t talk to me, every message left on seen, every lackluster reply, anytime i can’t tell whether or not they really love me tears me apart. i’m constantly afraid anytime not spent with me is spent talking about me even after they’ve assured me they aren’t. whenever they’re not with me i’m left with this empty feeling of anxiety and helplessness i can’t escape even through sleep.
it’s exhausting.
this is what it’s like to be friends with me
If neurotypicals are so good at picking up hints, why do they never seem to notice you leaning away when they try to touch you?
If neurotypicals are so empathic and social, why do they not notice when they are mean as fuck?
If neurotypicals are so adaptable to change, why won’t they make accommodations for neurodivergent people?
Having a medical degree does not magically absolve you of systemic ableism or prevent you from enacting it
In the same way, having a psychiatry degree does not magically absolve you of systemic saneism or prevent you from enacting it
No amount of schooling can fix someone who thinks they know better than the people who have the conditions
