how to add yourself to my shit list:
compare me to someone else
Splitting! A guide from someone with BPD:
1: *Trigger happens*
2: *incomplete anxiety thoughts start to come in droves*
3: *split:everything is bad-this is all my/your fault- I want to die- I want to fight- self harm or violence if provoked further, delusional thinking related to past experiences, sometimes partial or full amnesia depending on emotional severity*
4: *slowly word vomit becomes more and more existential and less about topic at hand?*
5: *reach numb phase where I am just existentially depressed and self aware*
6: *pass out in emotional exhaustion*
7: *wake up basically anew, situation is less of an issue, have forgotten majority of it except how I felt before I snapped*
