Me: crying and feeling suicidal
Me, 10 mins later: I feel absolutely nothing.
I fluctuate between "my needs are unreasonable, I should repress them so I don't have to bother anyone" and "I've been through so much. I deserve a bit of understanding and comfort"
I hate the whole backlash like ‘you say touch starved but you actually just mean horny’ NO I mean when I was getting my hair cut there was a moment where the hairdresser tilted my head to the side and the top of my head brushed his chest and my brain short circuited with endorphins because it thought I was being held
some real long term shit wouldn’t be that bad rn