i think i’ll miss you forever, like the stars miss the sun in the morning sky
I've been so deprived of love it feels wrong to want it
when i feel sad i go and thrift, it’s like my new habit.. my bank account doesn’t like it but i do :)
some say you can't love others properly until you love yourself, but i disagree. i've been poisoned against myself for years and years and i don't know if i'll ever love myself properly, but i love my friends and family with the kind of open-minded, dedicated love that i am trying to learn from. i forgive them their mistakes. i notice the way they smile. i want them to eat well. i want their showers to have perfect water pressure. i want to bake them pies and plant gardens with them. i want people to treat them well and i want them to stand up for themselves. i'm learning from my love for them how to love myself.
sensory overload is fucking me through the ass out the mouth and up my nose and to my brain.
I'd rather listen to music and cry than tell a single person what is killing me and I know that is self destructive but it's better than letting someone else destroy me
