Why don't I have any self control, I've hurt so many people, I am the toxic one
isnt it funny how calling people out on their shit makes you the bad guy?
the worst thing about being educated on your mental illness is know there's nothing you can do at times. you just have to hold on for the ride and holy fuck is it hard..
I have zero interest in strangers. That’s why I can’t make and keep friends.
I try to convince myself that I’m empathetic but in reality I’m not, I’m just hyper vigilant to others’ negativity.
I hate small talk. Don’t ask how I am as a greeting. I don’t care about your life’s drama. I’m hyperfixating on my mental state.
If someone starts giving me an excess amount of personal attention, like messaging me 24/7? I start to take interest, but as soon as there’s distance again I stop caring entirely or freak out about the distance.
Relationships are so hard. All I want is to love and be loved.
it’s getting harder and harder to tolerate myself and this piece of shit existence
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