trauma sideblog, yandere, bpd, depressed asf
that bpd mood when you couldn’t hate yourself more yet somehow you also have the fucking audacity to think other people should worship you. i despise myself and yet in the same moment i desperately hope someone else out there sees something in me that i can’t.
schools always have that thing that’s like “we care about students mental health” but as soon as a student shows any signs it’s automatically that they are lazy. schools never have and never will truly care about students mental health.
i’m turning 18 in two days and the fact that thirteen year old me thought i would be dead by now, i think is one of the saddest things about mental illness. i never thought id make it to 18, eight-fucking-teen because of how fucked i am as a person and all the bad shit that happened to me as a child. this is one of the worst parts of mental illness, having to explain how it’s a miracle you’re still alive. after so many attempts i’m still here.
Quiet bpd culture is wanting to threat suicide when someone's leaving you but you'd feel worse cuz you think you'd be manipulating them into taking care of you when they really don't want to so you just suppress your breakdown and suffer in silence instead
