nightmare in disguise

anezkadragon

I know most people don’t understand bpd

but it would be nice if they would just try, right?

A lot of times we aren’t even able to state how we feel without being judged.

It actually makes me delete posts…

anezkadragon

Examples of bpd episodes:

just being really silent, suffering from unbearable self hate, believing everyone hates you
feeling watched, paranoid in public and judged
experiencing life trough a white fog, not being able to see, hear everything - not feeling anything
feeling numb and unreal, depressive episodes - not being able to move
self harm
feeling highly agitated, experiencing anger, rage - behaving violently against loved once - being verbally and physically aggressive, abusive
behaving like a little kid, child-like expressions, speech and behaviors - needing constant attention and help
often experiencing more than one of the above at once
other disorders factor in - such as eating disorders
feeling completely helpless during those episodes - watching yourself from the outside

anezkadragon

basically having no hobbies
not being able to find a passion
not experiencing happiness trough hobbies or people
but really wanting to do something fun and fulfilling
being tired, having depression
rushing into new hobbies and needing equipment immediately, spending a lot of money
but loosing interest quickly and easily
not pursuing hobbies due to no instant success
not being able to act on a hobby cause you’re highly agitated
feeling numb all day, even around loved ones and doing something actually fun
not really experiencing a situation, feeling like you are not actually there