am i unlovable or something
what a perfect evening to curl up and cry
want him to be as obsessed with me as i am him so that any time someone else even breathes around him, he's disgusted about the fact that they aren't me.
stop hesitating. tell me everything you've ever thought. i just want to listen to you.
I want to give you flowers, I want to spend hours writing letters for you and send you paragraphs on how important you are to me.. I really need you..I know I tell you that you mean so much to me a lot but do you really understand that I mean it? Do you know to what degree I care about you? Can you imagine what I mean when I say I would do anything for you? Youre always so sweet to me.. Do I truly deserve you? Heh.. Even if I dont.. I wont let you go now. I will never let you leave. Its not like youd ever want to leave me in the first place, right?<3
when my psychiatrist changes my meds around
it’s a game and i’m a pawn. it either works and i feel great or i don’t get out of bed for weeks because i can’t mentally handle anything anymore