I’m always mourning who I’d be if I wasn’t so fucked up
hey hey you you wanna run a truck over me
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one if the worst bpd things is INVALIDATING YOUR OWN TRAUMA!!!!!!!! Thinking it wasnt as big a deal as it was!!! thinking you made it up in your head!!!! not being able to separate reality from daydreams!!!!
please talk to me i just want to talk i know youre doing something important but i need you i need you i need you please please please please please please i just want to talk please just tell me you love me please please i need you i need you i need you i need you i dont know how to deal with my emotions and youre the only one who can make me feel better please please i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you
i thought that everyone got literal physical, soul shattering pain when their friends hang out with someone different ? or is that just my fear of abandonment ?
i’m so scared. i really don’t wanna fail miserably again but everytime i get attached i ruin things and they leave because i become a liability and less of a person. fuck i wish i was normal like i’d give anything to get a new brain and just be a person again