nightmare in disguise

[nightmare in disguise]

[traumatizeddfox]

your abuse is still valid if

- you don’t remember all the details (or any)

-you still are with your abuser(s)

-still talk to your abusers

-have forgiven them

-haven’t forgiven them

-miss your abuser(s)

-love your abuser(s)

-felt like it wasn’t “bad” enough

[nightmare in disguise]

living with bpd be like can someone please love me and not be lying but then making it very difficult for someone to love you bc self destruction is all you know and you feel very unloveable basically 24/7 so you cant believe them for long enough anyway

[nightmare in disguise]

[nightmare in disguise]

[anxietyproblem]

[nightmare in disguise]

[alien-affect]

That feeling when:

You don’t realize that you’re hungry ‘til you get dizzy from not eating, so you make yourself fast easy food to eat, but after a few bites, when the hunger’s calmed down a little, you notice you’re under-stimulated, so you pull up a task, but then you get distracted, and it’s been at least ten minutes, and now your food seems like the least appealing thing ever, and you don’t feel hungry anymore (even though you definitely haven’t eaten enough), and so you have to either struggle to eat the last of your food which now feels like an awful chore, or get up and put it away for later, which is also a chore.

[nightmare in disguise]

[ashstfu]

achievements of 2021:

• ???
• ?????
• ?!?!?!?!!!??!?!?!?
• ??
• !!!!?
• probably spent more time on the internet than last year

[nightmare in disguise]

[borderlineblitz]

I can’t do this anymore dude

[nightmare in disguise]

[brokenplushie]

my secret to being super cute is having abandonment issues

[nightmare in disguise]

if i can’t have you i’ll kill myself

[nightmare in disguise]

[theprideful]

why autistic/adhd people may not ask for help

• i’m not sure where to start and i don’t even know what questions to ask that would help me understand any of this
• i want to ask you but i’m deathly afraid that you will hate my guts and resent me forever
• i feel stupid and embarrassed for not knowing/understanding this
• i wasn’t paying attention/i zoned out/you were talking too fast while going over this
• “oh my god are serious? it’s obvious, weren’t you paying any attention?” thanks for confirming i’m as stupid as i feel, appreciate it
• i forgot about this deadline and i should’ve done it sooner but now it’s too late and awkward to say anything
• your criticism will cast me into despair
• i have no idea how to articulate my concerns so i will sit here silently until i can
• i feel horrible about not doing it and not asking you initially and so i’m avoiding talking about it in the hopes that i will miraculously and suddenly understand it instead of doing the walk of shame to your office and risking the chance that i’ll piss you off and ruin your night
• i’m working up the confidence to ask you
• i’m formulating in my head a way to ask that doesn’t make me sound like i didn’t care enough to do it sooner, and that i actually have the willingness to do it, and that doesn’t place any blame on anyone except maybe me

autistic/adhd people feel free to add on! obviously this will vary from person to person, but this is my personal experience as an autistic and adhd person. if you’re neurotypical, please don’t try to offer tips for how to get around this because i can almost guarantee it will not be helpful :)