when your fp texts you in a different tone and you're trying to convince your bpd that they don't hate you
i am actually going thru it :,)
BLOCK DON’T REPORT,, IM NOT IN CRISIS
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transguy — nineteen — he/they — irl mlm yandere
this is a vent account, i am not pro or romantizing any aggressive behaviors. i just have bpd and obsess over him!!
★ all things on this blog are trauma related or intrusive thoughts and should NOT be portrayed as sexual or romanticized content.
look at hashtags, i always forget to put tw in the post
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do not interact if:
nsfw, pro anything (unless recovery), pedo or any other gross person
any of the phobics (homo, trans, etc.), racist or ableist
age regressor; for your own safety, not because of you <3
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★ please nothing sexual towards me, it makes me uncomfortable
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main tws - sui talk, angry vents, intrusive and violent thoughts, love pining, obsessive love, splitting
feel free to dm or ask as long as it’s not sexual :)
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yan mbti - RAHL (reverent, aware, honest, lenient)
personality mbti - infp-t
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definition of favorite person; a favorite person is someone that a person with a mental illness will rely on for support and often looks up to or idolizes them. it’s most common with people who have borderline personality disorder (bpd) to have a fp and they usually only have one, but some people can have many - for the people that ask in my comments :)
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my blogs:
★ tourettes side acct for anyone interested: @ticcticcticcattack
★ my main account that i follow and reply from, for anyone interested:
★ cluster fuck account with all different mental illnesss stuff:
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reminder: if you are a nsfw account, minor or age regression account i will not interact with you. it makes me uncomfortable, and i will not engage in conversation or reply to anything you dm, comment or ask. nothing against against anyone but i am 19 years old and minors and age regressors are not encouraged on this account for triggering content let alone to message me. i have no interest of nsfw accounts asking or replying to my content either so i will not reply.
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FOR ANYONE CURIOUS ABOUT WHAT BPD IS:
MORE IN DEPTH EXPLANATION OF SPLITTING:
also i hate co-morbididity
like i’m officially diagnosed with 4 disorders but since there’s so much overlap between other disorders and the likelihood of “if you have this then you probably have this” is maddening.
like am i misdiagnosed? do i have BPD? do i have AVPD? do i have both? is it neither of those? do i have DID/OSDD? do i have delusions & psychosis? Or is that just the extreme levels of anxiety? do i have autism or am i making that up?
ITS SO HARD to just figure out what the fuck is wrong with me. And it sounds ridiculous to say that i could even have any of those ON TOP OF what i already have. there is just so much overlap and psychology isn’t a hard science so to even get a diagnosis for treatment or to even get treatment you have to find a therapist who believes your symptoms. and if you’ve had the same therapist for a while (like me) then they probably already have a biased idea on what they think you have. A good therapist WILL be open to other ideas but even then it’s still hard to get answers.
Even interacting with communities i’m not prof diagnosed with makes me feel evil because it’s like i’m lying or stealing their things. EVEN THOUGH advice that works should be used regardless of where it came from. I feel like i can’t use terms like “Fp” to describe what i’m feeling bc i’m not diagnosed and those terms don’t feel like they belong to me. Even if the experiences surrounding them fit my experience very very similarly.