I just want a platonic life partner :(
This user is tired of having borderline personality disorder
so y'all just...... don't hyperfixate?? or imagine your own little world where you put yourself or an oc in as a main character and imagine the world for hours on end? or get random bursts of emotions??? wack
I wish someone would realize how I feel. Delve into me with their hands and pull out all the darkest parts of me and turn them to light. Kiss the scars I’ve self-inflicted in the past and love every part of me. The self rage, the depression, without consequence, or conditions
An example of how BPD affects my every day relationships.
Me: *Thinking* omg! They are the best! I love them so much best friend I have ever had in my entire life! So much overflowing love!!
Person: *says one slightly rude thing*
Me: *Thinking* What fucking bullshit?!! How could a mother fucker even begin to say anything to me like that to hurt my feelings, they must have never cared about me in the first place! Well fuck them.
Person: *Apologizes*
Me: *Thinking* Okay, it’s fine everything is good now, I’m chill.
Me: *Thinking later* what if they really meant it and I’m actually just just worthless to everyone I ever meet? What if everyone feels that way about me and they were the only person that was able to say it because they care about my existence and want to be honest with me?
Person: *Just lives their life and doesn’t even give anything a second thought*
You think someone with BPD is being annoying? We don’t like feeling it either and we are more annoyed at ourselves than you could ever be at us.
