trauma sideblog, yandere, bpd, depressed asf
The problem with the traffic light method to describe mental health "days" isn't really a great tool for BPD individuals because we don't have days. We have hour by hour. We can be totally fine and in a "green light" zone for a few hours. But then a minor inconvenience, or spoken word, or even just NOTHING can throw us back to the "red light" zone.
I think the method definitely works but we may need a more specific breakdown for how to handle hour by hour scenarios.
i hate when people tell me “others cant make you feel how you feel you control your own emotions” LIKE BITCH I CANT
i’m scared of abandonment because losing people equals losing my sense of identity. i get too attached, i build my entire world around them and when they leave it’s like they ripped out everything i thought i am and i’m left with this gaping hole inside of me. i’m numb, i’m empty, i don’t know where to go, i don’t know who i am. losing them means losing myself
i wish i was on something. ANYTHING. to make this feeling go away. i hate how this feels. i’d rather be dead than feel like this. i cant stand it
