All I want to do is scream and cry into his shoulder about how much he's hurting me, while he's hugging me. That's all I want.
there is so much hate and anger growing inside of me it’s crushing my soul
ayyyy mommy issues and daddy issues gang stand up!!
we have bad relationships with both our parents!! 😎💦👌💯🔥💪💯✊🔥🙏😤😎💦🔥😎😝🔥💯💪✊
Me, after using every unhealthy coping mechanism I have ever had within the past 24 hours:
me: *obsessively weighs myself*
me: *counts every calorie*
me: *fasts for 24+ hours regularly*
me: *lies about eating to loved ones*
also me: I don’t have an eating disorder, i’m faking it
sucks that i’ve lost my life to mental illness just because some people thought it was okay to treat me like shit
What it’s like to have ‘Quiet BPD’:
Quiet BPD is also considered ‘High Functioning BPD’. This means that most of the time you act inward, or most of your BPD episodes are unseen.
- A Quote from Psychology Today: Link
“Most information on BPD focuses on its classic symptoms but having high-functioning or “quiet” BPD could mean your suffering remains unseen and missed by most. When you have high-functioning BPD, you may not have stereotypical symptoms like anger outbursts or self-harming behaviors. Your BPD tends to only come out in “pockets,” such as when you are triggered by certain people or situations. On the surface, you are calm and collected. You may be highly competent at work, and perhaps many look to you for leadership and advice. You may be popular and friendly among friends, and appear energetic and optimistic. Behind the screen, however, you suffer from intense loneliness, shame, and may be extremely critical of yourself.”
- A Quote from Health-line: Link
“Having quiet BPD means that you direct any mood swings and behaviors inward, rather than directing them toward others. In other words, you “act in,” rather than “act out.” Acting inward can complicate an already invisible mental illness. With quiet BPD, you may direct significant feelings toward yourself without letting others see them. Quiet BPD is also sometimes called “high-functioning” BPD. This is another potentially misleading term that indicates a person with this type of BPD may not “show” their symptoms and are still able to cope in everyday situations, such as work and school”