"A protein bar isn't a meal"
For 210 cals I think the fuck it is!
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someone: you dont look anorexic!!
my disordered ass: thanks for the motivation
To be a handsome, skinny boy thats drowning in a hoodie and finally being able to fit in real skinny jeans 🥺
half assed bodycheck bc im at my friends house but here!!
he/him
all photos ae me, feel free to reblog, do not repost without credit.
you say i have an eating disorder? then how could i do THIS *gains ten pounds and spends every minute of the day hating myself and trying to turn off the urge to punch a wall/mirror simply because the sadness and rage i feel over the grossness of my body and how ill probably never get to how i want to look in my life and i’m in too deep but also not deep enough to ask for help so i just sit and wallow and begin to lose control of everything in my life which just worsens the whole situation*
“Disordered Eating” Things
- Simultaneously eating like a normal person and mentally lashing yourself for it.
- Not eating when you feel angry or sad, but then a few hours later you eat a bag of chocolate marshmallows because you somehow convince yourself it doesn’t count.
- “I shouldn’t have done that”
- Looking at thinspo at night and crying because you feel ugly
- The 5th grader pitch screaming in your head as you take another bite of food.
- a week of super healthy eating and working out followed by two weeks of unhealthy eating
- constantly shifting of wanting to look like a toned fitness model, to a thicc slim, to a skeleton fairy
- *eating something* *someone comments on the thing you are eating* *stops eating thing* *50/50 chance you may eat it later*
- oh yeah, random moments of eating something before spontaneously destroying the food or tossing it
- “Okay, after this weekend, I’m fasting”
- wishing you were anorexic knowing you shouldn't
- body dysmorphia
- Calling it disordered eating because you don’t feel deserving of calling it an ed
For ftm anas
- Smaller breasts
- No more periods
- Veiny hands
- A sharp jawline
- Defined cheekbones
- Baggy clothes looking good instead of making you look chubby
- Being able to wear skinny jeans
- Being able to wear feminine clothes without looking weird
- Clear skin
- Short hair looks better on angular faces
masc reasons to lose weight (fall related)
- wearing sweaters and looking handsome in them
- collarbones poking out underneath everything and making you look strong
- boney, large fingers
- baggy, torn jeans, skinny or not
- ribs popping our from under your chest in gym class
- sharp jaw line
- sharp cheek bones
- looking good in hats and pompadour haircuts
- combat boots