also i hate co-morbididity
like i’m officially diagnosed with 4 disorders but since there’s so much overlap between other disorders and the likelihood of “if you have this then you probably have this” is maddening.
like am i misdiagnosed? do i have BPD? do i have AVPD? do i have both? is it neither of those? do i have DID/OSDD? do i have delusions & psychosis? Or is that just the extreme levels of anxiety? do i have autism or am i making that up?
ITS SO HARD to just figure out what the fuck is wrong with me. And it sounds ridiculous to say that i could even have any of those ON TOP OF what i already have. there is just so much overlap and psychology isn’t a hard science so to even get a diagnosis for treatment or to even get treatment you have to find a therapist who believes your symptoms. and if you’ve had the same therapist for a while (like me) then they probably already have a biased idea on what they think you have. A good therapist WILL be open to other ideas but even then it’s still hard to get answers.
Even interacting with communities i’m not prof diagnosed with makes me feel evil because it’s like i’m lying or stealing their things. EVEN THOUGH advice that works should be used regardless of where it came from. I feel like i can’t use terms like “Fp” to describe what i’m feeling bc i’m not diagnosed and those terms don’t feel like they belong to me. Even if the experiences surrounding them fit my experience very very similarly.
