rotten

i feel alone
my chest hurts, my eyes are tired of crying
my heart is rotten and abandoned
i try to be close to people, not to isolate myself as i always do
but it's not really helping me at all, because i still feel the same way
i don't fit in with anyone
i feel like I'm just a nuisance, a burden, a waste of time
i am someone who doesn't deserve friends or a partner
nor a nice future