need a bf who knows im smart but treats me like im dumb so i never have to make any decisions ever again
Anonymous asked:
Do you have access to a therapist or psychiatrist? Do you have a support system you could fall back on?
i do, i go to both on routine basis, i used to have more of a support system until they decided to tell me they couldn’t handle me anymore.. but i’ll figure it out
he hates me (hasn’t responded in 5 mins)
my best friend just told me we need space because he can’t handle me being the way i am and i need help and that he doesn’t think i’m in a good headspace and i need to fix it.. how do i go about this? someone please give me advice
this week has been complete shit. this new year better treat me better or it’ll be my last year i swear
Anonymous asked:
Jesus loves you
no he doesn’t, if he did he wouldn’t have given me this shitty disorder
imagine the worst you’ve ever felt - the most hopeless, depressed, lonely, unlovable day you’ve ever had - now multiply that by 100 .. that’s the intensity in which people w bpd experience any negative emotion, every. single. time. and it’s why suicidal thinking is so common for us
when i isolate, i feel more comfortable since i don’t have to mask. it feels safe. but the longer i isolate, the more social anxiety builds up even if i don’t realize it at the time & when i see someone again, the paranoia feels suffocating. suddenly i don’t feel safe anymore
god knew id be too much of a problem if i wasn’t so emotional
i feel like i should disappear nobody cares lol