reciprocity is very important to a lot of people with bpd because it really affirms and validates the strength of our relationships, which can also aid in keeping our abandonment triggers at bay
tw: caps
I JUST WANT SOMEONE TO LOVE ME AS MUCH AS I LOVE THEM I HAVE SO MUCH FUCKING LOVE TO GIVE PLS SOMEONE JUST LET ME GIVE MY LOVE TO U AND GIVE THE SAME AMOUNT BACK IN RETURN THATS ALL IM ASKING FOR UGHHHH
i’m just a boy whose inner workings resemble a forest fire
hi i hope you know i NEED you to survive, not to be manipulative but if you leave i’ll DIE
the worst part about bpd in my opinion is the perceived abandonment, we sense something is off or create a situation that pisses us off and then roll with it, causing a argument or fight that only ends in us looking like a bad person for creating something to begin with.. god i’m tired of this fucking disorder
i hate myself im the worst i suck no one actually likes me no one wants me idk whats wrong with me im never enough and im always too much i just shouldnt exist
you call it a trauma response, i call it a silly little detail about myself
jus once in my life i wanna be crying in a bathtub and have someone wash my hair and feel like im truly cared for