reassurance is such a big thing to me cause my mind is everywhere
the bpd urge to push everyone away to test if they actually love me
everyone gets bored of me eventually. i’m not saying this to get comfort or pity, it’s just me remembering that everyone goes away in the end :/
it’s a bad habit..
behind every relatable post is n angel w bpd
r u into guys who will have a mental breakdown at the thought of u abandoning them
you ever get so upset you start shaking and seeing black. you shutdown and ignore everyone and everything and if one person says anything you blow up in their face, yea i’m at that point right now
i am going to kill myself i stg
every time i mention anything about being suicidal or anything of the sort it’s “no death >:(” from my fp.. i said “you’d get over it, i’m not that important” and he said “you’re more important than you know” guys it’s official, i’m absolutely in love with him.. he didn’t understand how much i needed someone to just say maybe i am important to someone..
how do you tell someone “i’m not ignoring you i’m just disconnected from reality right now and the days are all blurred together and i feel completely apathetic towards everyone/everything around me so it’s really hard for me to maintain a conversation” without saying that