suicidal urge to run to my nearest bridge vs the mental lack of energy to get up n do it
longing for parental love and care that you’ve never had hits diff :(
sexy people don’t remember most of their childhoods
fighting the urge to ask everyone in my life their honest opinions of me because i don’t know myself at all
*someone is kind to me*
to be held by someone who loves me, that’s all i ask for
when someone asks me whats wrong and i don’t know how to express it fully without coming off as rude or negative or looking for attention/pity or make the person asking sad or affect them in anyway
“ur so quiet”
being self aware and mentally ill is so exhausting because not only do i know when i’m being self destructive, i watch myself do it anyway
being the family disappointment is my full time job