something is being held back in my throat and i don’t know what it is, maybe a good cry? a scream? a scream cry? i don’t know what it is but i don’t like this feeling.
the fact that i can’t live in his pocket is genuinely offensive
“i need him like water
he thinks that i’m alright”
yea that’s about as accurate as anything :(
i would smoke in a psych ward bathroom with all of you <3
i manipulate this man into putting me down so hopefully it breaks my love for him away but every time it just makes me change myself more and more :/
i hate how sensitive i am, i literally break my own heart
if someone is upset with me, it genuinely feels my life is in danger. imagine pissing someone off but feeling like when you turn around they are holding a shotgun to your head. that’s why i cry. i’m terrified of what is to come.
why is the love i get always conditional, i just want unconditional love,, yea i know i’m fucked up but cmon someone should be able to just love me for me.. i’m trying my best out here
why does my default emotion have to be sad :/
i’m a simple boy, i see a knife i get the intense urge to stab myself or anyone around me