literally cried at work today twice,, in front of my fucking manager- if you never see me again it’s cuz i killed myself out of embarrassment
i fucking hate that you control my thoughts
all that matters isn’t that you want to hurt me. all that matters is that you WANT me.
*flirting* god i want to bully you so badly
“it gets better, i promise”
yea right, stop fucking lying to me
you know what sounds kinda sexy? no one hurting my feelings ever again
“ur so chill” thanks, i stopped looking for purpose in the world, i now drift as the wind
i wish my family understood neurodivergency more cuz maybe they wouldn’t think i hate being around them that much and maybe just realize i need a moment of space, they don’t even understand social batteries either it’s like they just think i’m weird and rude which fine i guess but like damn idk i wish i didn’t come off as rude all the time to them
a thing i will never understand with bpd: how some of you have jobs. how. you must be truly strong to do it with this disorder because i seriously hate going into my shifts every time and consider ending it all just to not go

