trauma sideblog, yandere, bpd, depressed asf
my best friend just told me we need space because he can’t handle me being the way i am and i need help and that he doesn’t think i’m in a good headspace and i need to fix it.. how do i go about this? someone please give me advice
this week has been complete shit. this new year better treat me better or it’ll be my last year i swear
Anonymous asked:
Jesus loves you
no he doesn’t, if he did he wouldn’t have given me this shitty disorder
imagine the worst you’ve ever felt - the most hopeless, depressed, lonely, unlovable day you’ve ever had - now multiply that by 100 .. that’s the intensity in which people w bpd experience any negative emotion, every. single. time. and it’s why suicidal thinking is so common for us
when i isolate, i feel more comfortable since i don’t have to mask. it feels safe. but the longer i isolate, the more social anxiety builds up even if i don’t realize it at the time & when i see someone again, the paranoia feels suffocating. suddenly i don’t feel safe anymore
god knew id be too much of a problem if i wasn’t so emotional
i feel like i should disappear nobody cares lol
the end of another year is close, another year in which i’ve spent the majority of it being a depressed, emotionally unstable lil bitch :,)
woke up feeling about the same as i did yesterday night,, just fucking great
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