not killing yourself when all you wanna do is die should be considered a fucking skill
me and who?
how do you tell your fp that them not talking to you makes you want to kill yourself without telling them?.. asking for a friend
not me getting attached to another cis man, what is wrong with me
need a boy who has literally nobody. no friends like at all
i hate being paranoid abt the ppl in my life and their true intentions bc if i don’t get clarity and constant validation i start to split and build up resentment against them and it just grows & grows over time which makes me feel so unsafe to be vulnerable around them
i don’t know what i want, i think its love, i think its friendship, i think its company, i think its family, i think its money, i think its peace, but then i hold one of these things and im still as empty as ever. i don’t know what is wrong with me
it’s not halloween yet but i’m already dressed up as a dumbass
i really hate how intense bpd is, just for those intense feelings to go away again. it’s just so fucking pointless. my whole body goes numb i feel a huge pit in my heart and stomach and not just mental symptoms but physical ones and for what? i hate this
i feel all of this and none of it is even real. yeah it’s real to me but the illness makes it all worse which makes me feel like this and im so sick of it. im sick of feeling things to this extreme when half of it isn’t even real
idk how to explain this. like it is real, but it’s just so extreme? and it’s so painful and intense and it just feels so pointless because i’ll be ok again, but it’s so intense my whole body is effected by it and my head. it feels impossible to see clearly. it doesn’t matter how much awareness i have, i know it’s happening but i might aswell not even have control of my own mind and body because i can’t stop how intense it is. it’s so fucking unfair and i hate this illness for making me feel so out of control of my own mind and body i just want it to stop
i just wanna fuckᶦⁿᵍ ᵐᵃᵗᵗᵉʳ ᵗᵒ ˢᵒᵐᵉᵒⁿᵉ