i think my bpd makes me an easy target. i’m loyal to a fault, i’m a people pleaser, i’m easily manipulated. people see that and take advantage
this is all life is, isn’t it?
i want him to want me the way i want him so bad
“where do you see yourself in 10 years” idk dead
i desire to be worshipped and adored
i’m not jealous (i wanna kill her)
im such a ‘‘i want ur attention but don’t wanna bother u’’ kinda person
all i’ll ever be is a temporary distraction in peoples lives until they get sick of me
me and my fucking abandonment issues ruining everything
bpd makes me love others the way i myself crave to be loved. entirely, blindly, obsessively, overall crazily.
this type of love is unsustainable but i’ve never been shown how to love healthily, and reasonable love from others never feels like enough.