i think the worst part about having bpd is honestly ruining great and meaningful relationships just because you’re too afraid of them leaving cause they’re so good to you you wouldn’t even bare it
ive honestly ruined so many relationships just because i became so attached to the other person that the only thing that made sense was to leave them before they get sick of me and staying in horrible abusive relationships because ik that as long as theyre hurting me they wont leave so id rather endure that pain rather than seeing someone good to me leave
i genuinely hate the person that i am and for not being able to believe people when they say they love me and wont hurt me or leave me its just so great im so shitty towards people i dont deserve


