it doesn’t matter how many times someone says it, i just never feel important, seen or loved n that’s my problem
i need someone to love me for real
thank god we only live once cause fuck this
things get overwhelming and i immediately resort to ‘i want to die’ in the most serious of ways because even one thing that feels bad is the equivalent of my world caving in
sorry for disappearing (it will happen again)
i feel so empty inside it’s like i’m pretending to be myself
unless u have bpd theres no way to describe to someone the feeling that bubbles inside u when u see or hear something u really didnt want to. in that moment it feels like the only thing that will make u feel better is ripping ur skin off and screaming into the sky, or killing urself
reciprocity is very important to a lot of people with bpd because it really affirms and validates the strength of our relationships, which can also aid in keeping our abandonment triggers at bay
