being self aware and mentally ill is so exhausting because not only do i know when i’m being self destructive, i watch myself do it anyway
being the family disappointment is my full time job
bpd isnt just having an fp. its feeling totally out of control. unhealthy coping mechanisms. randomly balling your eyes out. struggling with a 9-5. intense relationship problems. splitting on the ppl you love. ruining good opportunities for yourself. severe trust issues. it’s tons of things, it’s not just obsessing over someone and basing your self worth over them.. it’s something way way more.
adulthood shouldn’t be this lonely
i literally push away everyone i care about with my isolation and constant burn out. what the fuck is wrong with me??
the loneliness of having a bpd breakdown and no one understands why you feel the way you do, not even you
im very jealous of people without severe mental illness



