i really do miss what we almost had
im not like…“splitting” out of anger, i’m splitting out of anxiety if that makes any sense?
can we talk about how awful it is to have both depression and bpd? i mean bpd intensifies any emotion you feel, but depression deprives you of joy, so you’re just going on with your life feeling every horrible emotion to the max with no compensation whatsoever. and people think i’m ungrateful or can’t accept “the nature of life” or i’m expecting too much. trust me, i am not even expecting happiness; i just want relief
bpd loneliness is literally hell…it’s a constant ache in my chest knowing i have no one here to cuddle or even fall asleep on video calls with
feeling abandoned over the smallest things ever slay
“people pleaser” my ass all i do is disappoint
late night calls? i miss that shit
at this point how violently i flinch at loud noises is just straight up annoying like can you stop embarrassing me everyone can tell you have trauma
“u okay?” no i just want to feel loved by someone without thinking they’re lying to me
i’m a cunt, why do i have people in my life? i genuinely don’t know why they’re still here..